Said to me in a ladies room: "I found your blog and would have never guessed you were such a tweaker! Look at that! You and your random expletives! If you were a man, I'd totally date you. You're a crazy girl."
The other night I re-read something written in my private journal back in December. For those who grok the tweak. Here.
ooO………………………………….V……………………………………Ooo
I wonder if I could pull it off—some sort of practice of writing- from- behind- the- veil.
I say and I say and I say that I’m going to use the owlspace to write less analytically. And then it’s back to conclusions and punchlines and figuring-it-out mind. One trick monkey. Always got to narrow it right down to a sharp little point.
Mmmm. But one-pointedness is for non-thinking. Not for thinking!
My teacher, these past months, he spoke to me in free- association. We’d freewheel for hours and see where it went. It’s perfect for me, the unstructured structure. Conversation is only fun, really, with those open to tangents and awake enough to hold open eight topical lines… and, in the end, speak together their spoked connections. Simultaneous limbs….
Is there a subconscious, unconscious, darkside, whatever? Just look at the modernism of that notion—the old school dualism. Yet… anymore I am sold. Because what else are dreams, and the place lost details go, and the lines of poems or films or scripture that lodge a little while in the mind? Where do superstitions and space aliens live?
With the Jungians I think of a shadow, though not to say it’s all dark as in devious. More like dark as in harder to see.
Freewriting can get you there sometimes. If you don’t get all anal and weird about your process (as science has trained me, so intensely, to be).
Wm Gibson—who writes from his subconscious with some genius—said something about his first chapters, which tend to be opaque and aesthetically not-quite-right. First chapters are a kind of gate he finds himself setting out at the start. The little obstacle helps him find his readers–and encourages people who shouldn't actually be reading to put him back on the shelf.
How obnoxious of him.
Nice!!!!!
Does all of that make sense? I wonder how long I could continue in the back seat without freaking out and taking control back from the Blog. (The scientists would not approve of all this…)
Blog is in control.
Blob is in control.
Glob is in control.
"God" is in control.
As if.
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